The Darkest Day: Winter Solstice and Religious Trauma
Why am I writing the same anti-Christmas rant every year, only to come back to my blog and read the same thing from last December, and...
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Faith | floating in the great and mysterious I Am.
Not sermons, not theology, not guidance; just an exploration of an unraveling and rewinding faith
This Leaf
This Leaf | A Poem
by Joyclam
Skipping Christmas (And Loving Jesus)
Why I Don't Celebrate (If I Don't Want To)
Where's The Poop, Robin? (Part 1)
My Lyme Story: For all the talk of finding the root cause, are we never getting to it: belief systems that perpetuate stress and fear?
Where's The Poop, Robin? (Part 2)
My Lyme Story: The Mind-Body connection deserves a more prominent look in the causes of chronic illness. Are we hiding the key to healing?
Where's The Poop, Robin? (Part 3)
My Lyme Story: How deep does this go? Is Chronic Lyme just the tip of a much bigger iceberg?
Where's The Poop, Robin? (Part 4)
My Lyme Story: Here I had it - the brain region responsible for all my problems, past and present. ADD, Depression, psychiatric Lyme
Where's The Poop, Robin? (Part 5)
My Lyme Story: Total Depravity. With a mind like that, how could I NOT get an illness that destroys the entire body? Total Autoimmunity.
Where's The Poop, Robin? (Part 6)
If we were raised in a culture of "No Pain, No Gain" or "suffering with Christ", how could we ever accept self-care and rest for healing?
Remember Me
If I am to remember God's love in my darkest times, I would ask Him to remember what it's like to grieve so hard you drown the whole world.
"Yes, and...": Counting All Joy, On One Middle Finger
In my mental health and trauma work, I’ve come to accept the very necessary concept of non-dualistic thinking; yin and yang, "yes, and"
The First-and-a-Half Commandment
Hating yourself will literally destroy your brain and body with illness. Hating your self will destroy your view of God and love for others
When God Shows Up
If I want to heal, know God, and be restored sevenfold, what should I expect but a whirlwind? When God sends a plague, it sets people free.
I in Christmas
Keeping the Christ in Christmas is not nearly so important... as keeping the I in Christ.
Archive: The 1 Thing You Need To Stop Saying
Do not say this to a chronically ill person. Ever.
God of Spoons - The Wasted Days
We are human BEINGS, not human DOINGS | "Henceforth I resolve to regard these as God’s signal that I am to stop and listen." -Frank Laubach
God of POTS - The Wasted Days, Part 2
We are human BEINGS, not human DOINGS | God is in charge of my "Wasted Days." He's doing the work. I can BE... in my pain, in my sorrow.
A Tale of Two Lymies
This article was originally written while I still identified as an Evangelical, struggling with judgment and condemnation surrounding my...
Recommended Reading: "The Hiding Place" by Corrie ten Boom
(warning: blessed spoilers) All excerpts from "The Hiding Place" by Corrie ten Boom with John and Elizabeth Sherrill; 1971. There is an...
Learning to Walk on Water
I ask God to prove Himself, and it turns out He does that by letting us do the impossible: surviving some of the worst things humans suffer
Manna and Quail - MCAS and Food Sensitivities
Our miracles are subtle, sometimes unnoticed, and sometimes, quite frankly, dull and annoying. Every day for 40 years. Enter the Lyme life.
Doctor Chariot and Doctor Horses, M.D.
Did you ever stop to think that doctors have had a profession for thousands of years, but modern pharma only dates from the mid 19th century
A Word on Monetization (Gifts, continued)
I took down all my affiliate disclosures and disconnected my monetizing account. My website is back to being MY website, and like me, it is
When Gifts Aren't Meant for Giving
I have, with great awe and trembling, been able to accept that being stricken with Lyme disease is a gift. The lessons I have learned...
"... and exchange it someday for a crown."
Let go of everything that's "supposed to be" and let life, and yourself, BE. Patience and faith go hand-in-hand.
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