Trading Diagnoses for Stages and Frameworks in Healing | A big part of healing my nervous system, I believe, was to accept the weirdness, love it, and give myself the freedom to explore it without judgment, without labels, without diagnoses, treatments, or suppression.

The Toxic Spiral of Looking for Purpose in Suffering

I made a promise I intend to keep with every fiber of my being: if I got a second chance at all the things I loved and took for granted, I wouldn’t waste it this time on fear and self-doubt. I was gonna live.

TW: Religious Abuse | The deadly consequences of silence

This Tickaversary post is purposely, joyously, and miraculously late. I had a feeling long ago that it might be, and I began so many...

This Leaf | A Poem by Joyclam

Can I respect everything in its season – winter, exhaustion, rest, grief? Can I honor Sabbath, transition, liminal spaces, unknowing?

recycle | repurpose | revive

Post-Coronial dystopia

Why I Don't Celebrate (If I Don't Want To)

2022 | digital media

In the war at home, I honor the sanctity of grief. My grief. Their grief. Your grief. Our grief.

Tricks and Treats for Getting Off Antidepressants (not-medical advice from not-a-doctor)

What remission from chronic Lyme is NOT is a sudden restoration to 100% health. A new life is here. And there’s no road map. Now what?

If I am to remember God's love in my darkest times, I would ask Him to remember what it's like to grieve so hard you drown the whole world.

The Power of Validating our Lived Experience | In my health and trauma work over the past few years, I’ve come to explore and accept the very necessary concept of non-dualistic thinking; yin and yang, opposite but essential, both true… “yes, and.” It's usually called "both/and" thinking.

I’m in a new territory – the “Remission Purgatory” as I call it. A space in between sick and healthy.

Hating yourself will literally destroy your brain and body with illness. Hating your self will destroy your view of God and love for others

If I want to heal, know God, and be restored sevenfold, what should I expect but a whirlwind? When God sends a plague, it sets people free.

Keeping the Christ in Christmas is not nearly so important... as keeping the I in Christ.

2020 | assemblage | 75" x 35" x 9"

2020 | installation | medical paraphernalia | 24" x 69" x 45"

I can’t believe it’s “only” been 4 years since the “ Summer of the Ticks. ” It seems like a lifetime ago. In many ways it was – I am a...

People think of recovery as tomorrow being better than yesterday, every day, every week, a little stronger. But Lyme-MSIDS recovery, like th

Instead of lamenting the weekend I found the tick that changed it all, I will celebrate surviving thus far!

There is a time to break down. There is a time to weep. There is a time to mourn. There is a time to be silent. Take it, and have peace.

I need to realize the self-fulfilled purpose of merely existing. I was created. I lived. He was glorified. It is finished.