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When diving into self-healing programs, mind-body books, podcasts, and survivor testimonies, I found all the advice, healing successes, and rebirths had one thing in common: the final stage of healing was in finding and living your purpose.  Even after remission, this was a years-long struggle for me for many reasons, practical, psychological, and spiritual.  I had trouble envisioning goals and believing in an achievable "purpose."  I wanted that, of course, but I strongly believed it couldn't be, or shouldn't be, programatized and marketed as a sure-fire path to healing or success.  I didn’t want coaching for how to get back into the current society, I wanted to join a new society, of integrated mental, spiritual, and physical health.  I didn’t want to do it in the ways of the old paradigm: write books, create programs, become an influencer, become a coach, market, sell, advertise, sell more, market more, be more, do more, work more, purpose-purpose-purpose or die!  I wanted what I myself needed: accessible, free, authentic and natural life skills developed in an awakened and supportive community, as a birthright, not a privilege.

So here is my story.  Here are the thoughts, frameworks, and skills I built for myself on my own personal journey to finding purpose when the very word “purpose” triggered PTSD and had me running for the hills.  Here is my documentation of the “Now What?!” Stage of Healing, my self-portrait of Post-Traumatic Growth, my road map of precious dead ends and rabbit trails that led to the treasures of both “then and there” and “here and now.”  It’s mine, it’s not meant to be yours . But the very power of expression is that it ignites others’ expression.  So here’s my fire – light what you will inside of yourself.